Everyday might not be good, but there is something good in everyday......

I knelt down beside you today..... I wonder if you knew? I almost didn't go.... I almost told Jared, I cant.... But I had the flowers in my hands and I knew how much you loved them........ so as I knelt there and the tears fell down my cheek's I prayed, for all of us left behind. Those who like myself still have hearts that aren't fully healed.

Its hard to imagine ever "liking" Oct 30 ever again. Its one of those days like Sept 11 that are frozen in your mind. Where you can relive that horrifying moment over and over again no matter how hard you try to block it out.....

Its the day My best friend Joci joined the angels of heaven.

Today is that day, but 5 years later, its been a long road full of many tears.

So I took her some sunflowers (Her favorite)

Someone else had left her yellow daises, and a pinkish rose.....

I heard a Quote the other day While listening to the Message on the radio.

Everyday might not be good, but there is something good in everyday. 

I tried really hard to hold tight to that today.

Although it was hard........

 I was able to have a nice time as Jared, my Mom and the kids and I carved pumpkins.

I am still trying to hold tight to the good in today..........

For the Lord is GOOD and his love endures forever: his faithfulness continues through all generations. Psalm 100: 5

Cadens chosen pumpkin~ reminds me of a Cinderella pumpkin

Gunner liked this one and wanted it because it had a twisty stem

My mom grew all of these in her garden this year!

Gunner mapping out his carving.

Can you tell its Mater (from Cars the Movie)

He also has lightning on there.

Caden carving an angel~

Jareds fancy work!

My Mom and her sun... she does a different sun every year! :)

all free hand......

My owl~ sitting on a branch

With candles

WHO WHO.....

Jared's again

Gunners finnished product~

Lightning McQueen

Caden's Angel and then she did an owl on a tree branch too. :)

Even on the really bad days, ask God to help you find the good. <3

And its ok to sneak away and cry if you need too~ I have a few times today....

I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles. Philippians 4: 13-14